Definition: The weight at which suicide is considered because you are too fat to live.
Friends, I am 1.8lbs away from my suicide weight.
Honestly, I don't know how this happened.
Wait, yes I do. It's because of the newly opened Crumbs bakeshop down the block from my work building. It's because of the box of saltines I bought during an irrational moment where I thought that I would have enough self control not to eat an entire sleeve in one sitting. It's because of the emergence of spring and the subsequent insatiable cravings for ice cream now that the weather is warm.
Either way, it happened. And now I have to reverse it. And we all know how much easier it is to gain weight than to lose it.
In an attempt to shed some unwanted pounds, I have committed to working out almost every day.
Sunday I talked myself out of a morning spin class, but then convinced myself that I needed to get a workout in, so took myself kayaking on the Charles River for 2.5 hours. It was a gorgeous day.
I am committed to going kayaking as much as possible this summer. I really love doing it, it's a great workout, and I paid for a season pass a month ago, so everytime I go it's basically free. How's that for motivation?
But I have to be realistic here. I have never had a problem with working out. Even in weeks where I feel like doing nothing and being a complete slug, I still manage to get in at least three solid workouts. And on weeks I'm motivated? At least five or six workouts.
It's not the working out that's the problem. It's the food.
I have a fabulous weekend planned with some of my favorite ladies (Amy, Kacy, Kelly, and Jess) and I know that food is going to be a major problem. Especially since my suggestions for weekend snacks included Salt N Vinegar Pringles and frozen pizza. But I am hoping to get a workout or two in to at least counteract all the junk and booze I plan on slamming down my throat.
This Sunday marks the start of my "everything in moderation" mission. Depriving myself of what I want never works. I always end up binging after a couple of days, and it's never pretty. So starting on Sunday, I am going to have small portions of the good stuff and large portions of the stuff I should be eating more of. And I'm going to try to stop thinking about food all the time. If that's even possible.
So here's to ANOTHER weight loss journey! And I promise never to use the words "weight loss journey" again on this blog. Because they make me want to throw up my breakfast cupcakes.
I'm really proud of you! I need to get back into the regular workout routine and definitely cut back on the junk. I think I'm going to tell my husband that if he wants to get fast food anymore, he has to sneak out of the house and eat it in the car and not tell me about it. Because let's be real here, exactly how am I supposed to turn down french fries? FRENCH FRIES???
ReplyDeleteI hear ya lady. The food aspect is my problem also, especially on the weekends. I'm always "I ate so good all week, now I can eat whatever I wantttt". Nope. I wish you luck, and even with some great meals this weekend, I think we'll be out and about enough that it won't be too bad.
ReplyDeleteYou get to meet them? You all get to hang out? Ugh. I am going to go feed my feelings now until I get dangerously close tot that suicide weight.
ReplyDeleteI am so jealous you all get to hang out. Jealous is actually an understatement bu I hope you ladies have fun.
ReplyDeleteI am equally as jealous of your proximity to Crumbs. I was just salivating over pictures from Crumbs when I went to NYC a few summers ago. This is how I spend my nights as of late.
Your weekend getaway sounds like a blast! I hope you guys take lots of pictures!
ReplyDeleteI think your being to hard on yourself. I told you before, but I'm super jealous of your curves and would trade my right arm for your boobs. But if you're uncomfortable with your body, I totally understand where you're coming from. I'm here if you need motivation or someone to talk to :)
The good news is that I'll be gorging on the chips too, so that will cut back on both of our consumption of their sweet, sweet glory.
ReplyDeleteI'm closer than I'd like to be to my suicide weight too. Blah.
I'm pretty jealous of the weekend you guys have planned. Don't beat yourself up about what you're consuming/not consuming over the weekend- just enjoy it and you'll get back on track next week. The season pass for kayaking is awesome- I didn't know that was available in Boston...I wonder if Chicago has anything like it. My ex had a kayak that he kept at a boat club, but I think you have to actually OWN a boat to be a member...hmm.
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